I continued working on this series, and the days ticked by so slowly that it was as if time had stopped. My negative, distorted feelings about my body and mind worsened. I started wondering if I was in the right career, wondering if I had wasted years of education and thousands of dollars on something I actually hated. Many sleepless nights later, the story of these paintings warped into something else. They became about loathing, depression, and wanting to lock myself away until the mushrooms and worms finally came to claim me. 

Since that time, I’m happy to say that I have reconnected with myself… albeit in a different way than I first pictured when I started this chapter. I’ve learned that even if the things that make me feel beautiful make me a monster to everyone else, I’ll still sharpen my horns in the mirror each morning with the biggest smile on my face. I’ll do anything for the little kid with the Ariel doll, because that kid is and always will be me, and I love them so much.

Abomination is a story about metamorphosis. This series was heavily inspired by analog horror works like Remy Abode’s Gemini Home Entertainment, Martin Walls' The Walten Files, and Darian Quilloy’s Vita Carnis, as well as the film Skinamarink directed by Kyle Edward Ball.